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2011-07-19T19:36:00.001+08:00

hello!!!

2011-01-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

Ok take it that i m running away frm everytg

2011-01-01T17:41:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2011~!!

2010-12-10T13:42:00.001+08:00

This is my 1000th post.

I m shifting to my new blog, u may pm me for e address if u want!

I cant blive i said No though it was under certain cicumstances.
Sad as it is, i know it's only necessary.

* goodbye!*

2010-12-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

As I await, everything will cease.

After 2010, there is no more you and me.. even as friends.

2010-12-09T23:27:00.003+08:00

Even on the last day of this year, i have to continue to lose someone.

this is my 998th post... i had began blogging in my new blog..after the 1000th post.. i guess i wont post here anymore.

* hahahhahahha *

2010-12-08T18:01:00.001+08:00

I really want to die laughing from e paradox of life.

2010-12-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

It will be a fresh start from my new blog.

bye!

2010-12-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

6 more posts to 1000 posts in Blogger.
haha.

My new semi private blog is finally up!
i called it semi private cause i got a private blog (no one has the site).
haha.
now i understand why some friends have several blogs...

I miss Tw =(

2010-12-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

How about i punch u in e face or chop off your leg and say i dun mean it?

2010-12-07T14:46:00.001+08:00

E more i think, the angrier i get.
I m seething with anger n i cannot control it this time.

How cn someone COMPLETELY dun rem?
Mayb drinking really has such far fetch effects.
I m nonpulssed.

Mayb i reacted too strongly but it is cause i care alot.

Whatever . I m tired frm thinking abt it

2010-12-07T07:24:00.001+08:00

Buddies r crap

2010-12-07T01:57:00.001+08:00

Everything is/was a lie

2010-12-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

Karma turned around to bite me.

It hurts, so much more than i thought it would be.

2010-12-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

u know... i only wanted this. i got other choices.
so be it.

let me know ya

2010-12-07T00:38:00.001+08:00

u deleted tt pic. what does it means?

2010-12-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

The glass broke into a thousand pieces perhaps?

After today, i am going to blog in my new blog...

goodbye blogger after so many yrs

haha

2010-12-06T23:24:00.001+08:00

BTW my Dear, you were right about me.

2010-12-06T23:21:00.001+08:00

No matter what i tried to do today, what i want to do today. it's either RUINED or OBSTRUCTED.

i m fucking frustrated.

& i want and wish to be left ALONE.

just want to be ALONE.

i really feel like running away from everything.

i hope everything is approved and i can leave this Dec. Maybe for good.

2010-12-06T22:29:00.001+08:00

Today is a fucking suay day!

& i hope my friend wont think it is cause of her..

shit day for all the things that happened.

can i hide away??????????

2010-12-06T19:53:00.002+08:00

One good alternative to Blogger is wordpress?

* maybe it is time for a change of site after so long of speaking about it*

2010-12-06T17:34:00.000+08:00

Apparently everyday in December is very annoying and exasperating.

I hate December!

2010-12-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

I realised my mind is fast changing.. But what's broken cannot be mend that easily.

Anyway i ended my day nicely coz i managed to get a dress i really like! The Aztec dress! Had a hard time deciding what colour to get

Nite ppl

2010-12-05T15:15:00.003+08:00

It's been so long since i last felt so insulted and god damn f*cking demoralised.

I dun understand y i have to take this lying down agn n agn.
I dun understand y my good intentions went unappreciated.
I finally understood, curiosity does kill e cat. I was the cat last night.
& i realised nth lasts forever.

I slept 2 hrs last nite,woke at 5 went for my run tdy.
Im so alive now haha!

I guess my life can be more normal frm today onwards!
Less exasperation!

I wanna go to Athens!

2010-12-05T11:56:00.000+08:00

I hate u

2010-12-05T00:16:00.001+08:00

I dun think drinking frm mon to sat is good or drinking at least 4 times a week is gd.

Neither do i think being superficial n then pumping in feelings is good

2010-12-03T12:00:00.001+08:00

This is what i call Fate. Finally break e new layer of ice when we accidentally meet in e lift when there r 4 lifts in operation.
N both need to tk e train for lunch.

Haha. Happy tt a mini stigma was cleared!

2010-12-03T08:13:00.000+08:00

Will it be the same sucky outcome again? Or will it be something worse?

2010-12-02T13:59:00.003+08:00

I tried to be there but i got a slam on e door.

I m drained from all the pandemonium.

2010-12-02T02:21:00.001+08:00

it is so late.

ALIVE

* HAHA*

Back to December

2010-12-02T00:02:00.001+08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back to December all the time

All the time

* i love this song*

2010-12-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

The song Back to December by Taylor Swift totally fits my thoughts and feeling.

2010-12-01T08:09:00.002+08:00

Someone mentioned that i dont actually really look at my phone..
Lol
Even when i got more than 5 unread smses..
Wahaha..
1st time that i heard this!

And it's 1Dec!
Countdown to 2011!

And i'm going to start my search for xmas pressies real soon :)

I think i am a kinda particular gal :(

2010-11-30T14:05:00.001+08:00

Wake me up when december ends

2010-11-30T08:06:00.003+08:00

I just want everytg simple and normal.. N tts when i am beginnng to realise you aint like that, i guess i shld distance myself as a fren.

I dun fancy being a bin for nonsense.

When i'm gone, carry on.

2010-11-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

Yea to PW's post, dec is coming.
2010 is finally ending, and i think i am very happy for it to end.. i am rejoicing!
i meet many new faces this year... more than i ever have (in a year) so far.
Maybe cause i travelled a lot this year.. i went to a lot of different places.
I am very friendly? (AS IF!) hahahah.

Why do I feel a little funny when i see ******** today?
Haha. Esp when ******** said that it is better (during drinking), i stay closer to ********, instead of J***. haha.
I almost wanted to hug ********.
cause i really laugh out loud.

somehow it made my day so much less blue despite the imminent fact of someone's depature.
I smiled and brightened a bit.

i muz be mad, as usual.

the rain tonight spoil my plan for running.

* fading *

2010-11-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

LOUSY week!

Haha!!

2010-11-28T13:56:00.000+08:00

Walao continue to call me pls

2010-11-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

Y did i start to doubt myself on this when i've been living for 23 yrs plus. By right there shld be no doubt

2010-11-27T04:56:00.003+08:00

I did unbelievable tgs tonite! Mayb i shld restrict myself less but am i gg overboard??

I m in a state of shock though she told me i shld tk it ez cause its natural if it was so！

2010-11-26T08:39:00.001+08:00

E news of ya depature still shook me after almost a day.

I wish i still cn have u as my colleague nxt yr.

Mon blues aint tt blue w ya crap, making me laugh my sotong head off

2010-11-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

都跟你说了放手
不要在听你的藉口
都跟你说了放手
不要在当什麽精神上的解脱
都跟你说了放手
我不在是你的玩偶
都跟你说了放手
从今以后不再让你欺负我

我受够了你给的痛

2010-11-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Suddenly felt like a spare.

HAHA

* i LOVE 2010! *

2010-11-25T15:48:00.001+08:00

What do u think of in your last moments of breath?

2010-11-25T13:22:00.001+08:00

I juz heard a news which saddens me quite a fair bit.

Seriously just how bad is 2010 going to get?

2010-11-25T07:58:00.001+08:00

U are right, i have the wrong focus.
But you ain't right about the gravity of it.

* chucking both of You aside *

2010-11-23T23:49:00.001+08:00

I still cannot understand. & it is irritating!

hairy issue

2010-11-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

Some people said, hair = the roots of probs (some old chinese saying?)
that's why ppl chop off their hair to turn into monks/nuns.

Changing a new hair style or cutting your hair is good as you rid yourself of some tacky probs.

I permed my hair before, no wonder my thoughts went haywired.
I decided to straighten my hair, so that my thoughts can be straightened out.
haha as if.

Lame and random post. Haha.

Do people MIA for a reason?
Do people always surround you for a reason?

Whatever it is, i had make up my mind..tentatively. Haha.

* nonsense*

Just a dream

2010-11-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

I was thinking about him
I was thinking about us
What we gonna be
Open my eyes,yeah
It was only just a dream

*sleepy alrd*

2010-11-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

Drink, drank & drink agn. Lol

2010-11-22T14:04:00.001+08:00

Day Zero.

2010-11-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

If words can be taken back so easily, i will take at least 50% of what i had said recently back.

haha

* life's really a bitch!*

2010-11-21T17:24:00.000+08:00

我看不懂，我会更难过。

2010-11-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

Day 5.

2010-11-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

Day 4! I hope i can succeed!

2010-11-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

Somehow it's back to day nil

2010-11-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

I cannot reply u!

2010-11-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

i agree,ppl frm INS are nice and fun.
i cant blive i just chatted with Dean! his office is near mine!

Lolx..

i wish i will meet more nice ppl like em..

* drinking really makes me more sober tonight..at least i didnt send any wrong tgs agn*
wahaha

2010-11-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

DAY 3.

* how long can this last? *

haha

2010-11-18T00:29:00.002+08:00

Day Two.

2010-11-17T16:08:00.001+08:00

I thank you for everything.

* It's time *

2010-11-16T08:42:00.003+08:00

我知道她很爱你，你怕她伤心。

难道我没有权利说我不愿意。

2010-11-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

I feel as if i can sleep now.

* so tired zzz *

2010-11-15T07:55:00.000+08:00

I think tt i'm obsessed

flashes

2010-11-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

You asked AA, when and where will be the next beach to head to?
AA kept quiet and changed topic.
but actually, she wanted to say, to all the beaches in SG first then ard the world...

* so what happened*

2010-11-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

Very funny of you to think that way leh...

Lolx

2010-11-13T17:13:00.000+08:00

I realised my best fren's assumptions can really mk me die literally..

Sigh

2010-11-13T15:24:00.000+08:00

I woke n felt strangely happy today.

That's weird. Lol

2010-11-13T03:08:00.001+08:00

u told me u r upset, i m just as upset as u do

2010-11-13T02:48:00.000+08:00

why do u say i have the access back then?

2010-11-13T02:44:00.001+08:00

I look at the vespa (model) i bought, it's such a joke.

lol

2010-11-12T10:53:00.003+08:00

Feel very tired due to lack of sleep :(

I feel very misunderstood leh n i got no idea how to correct it.
That was a misrepresentation..
Now i feel awkward and simply weird..

Hope nxt wk will b a much better one than this!

*miss those rides*

2010-11-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

DONT ASK ME WHY. FOR I DUNO THE ANSWER TO WHY.. I CANNOT EXPLAIN ANYONE'S BEHAVIOR EXCEPT TO ASK YOU NOT TO CRY OR TO BE SO UPSET OVER THEM,HIM,HER,WHATEVER SO.

It's not ez to just listen n try figure out myself, i might not even know half the story.

i am willing to listen as always.. but please remember, i am just human.

2010-11-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

years and years of bonding was the bane of my life

yawnsss

2010-11-07T16:33:00.003+08:00

It had been quite a lazy week for me...

almost finished 2 books for the week..haha..

feeling kind of demoralized..

* miu! *

2010-11-07T01:29:00.002+08:00

I think i cannot be here for you most of the time...
Sometimes i feel weird which i don't know why & it seems almost inappropriate to care/bother too much.

I get questions pointed at my face which i failed to reply,much to their disappointment.

* i want to take a step back*

2010-11-06T03:41:00.000+08:00

i want an iphone. i can't even edit my previous post cause it's too long. i wanted 2 change let's to lets. but forget it. i want 2 change my jet away. and insomnia sucks

.....................

2010-11-06T00:53:00.002+08:00

I realised i have been drinking a fair bit of late... lolx..

I didnt get drunk, dont get mistaken.

Just 1 pint or 2 usually i guess? Didn't really tabulate.

I told pal much today, about some things which i didnt tell her for the longest time,for fear to hurt her.
Haha but i am glad she maintain her composure ,her expression was transfixed on the baby next table instead...Anyway so many yrs had passed already,let bygones be bygones.

I am glad she loves Hefe-Weissbier as much as i do.
I appreciate it. Haha.

I used to do self-reflection quite often but always failed to abide by my purportedly new guide.
Seems like an insuperable mission.

Sometimes, people do miss you when you're gone, but if you are still hovering around..my guess is most of the time, they might take you for granted.
For the times you stay by the crestfallen souls, keeping a light on when all else deny them.
For the times you make an ungratifying effort, they might brush it off with a mere thanks or overwhelm you with soapy dramas.

Let's toast to my chummies who are still around.

Cheers,
Cia.

hell NO

2010-11-05T01:47:00.002+08:00

請記得我没有後悔...

他的心,我没有打扰.

神经!

爱不单行

2010-11-04T00:38:00.001+08:00

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人爲何在天黑以后
还是甯愿回到
爱情那个枷锁
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
是不可输的吗
爲何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
是不可输的吗
爲何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

2010-11-02T19:19:00.000+08:00

Today is a uber super incredible frustrating day....

ok, i played hand in hand.

i cannot blame anyone also...

no one knows it will turn out this way.

it wasn't intentional.

CALM DOWN.

2010-11-01T22:58:00.001+08:00

If that is really the case.. give that up.

there's always sth awaiting u, maybe better or worse... u can try.

won't u?

2010-10-29T15:58:00.001+08:00

It's just a chatting and slacking session at BCP.

* zz *

2010-10-28T11:05:00.001+08:00

I feel very tired thus I am blogging to make myself more awake, in any way that it might be of help?

Lol.

Yesterday’s BBQ session was good…the food was really nice, I seldom enjoy BBQ food as a matter of fact. Haha
The booze was good as well..alot of booze in fact, as usual la for em.Lolx
The fun was well-remembered as people took down videos.
I laughed until my jaws ached and for a moment I thought I was going into spasm. Haha

Just last Sunday, my pal and I reviewed our 2010 till Oct.
It is a year full of changes and trying out new stuffs.

I need to rack my brain for a new place to have xmas dinner this year as well.
Haha

Some things might be moving slowly, but well, it might be a good sign.
You may end up in a crash if the speed is beyond control.

I am beginning to see the meaning of nothing lasts forever and no one is indispensable.
Don’t know why, but I just got this sudden injection of thought.

The weather was kinda perfect yesterday except for some slight drizzle.
Clouds were cumulous upon the azure blue sky.
Sun was warm and friendly with the occasional wind gushing passed.
Everything seems so right in place.
But I felt empty for a moment.
Maybe it is because I still haven’t adapted fully to the changes or there is not enough time for me to absorb all the variances in life this year.

I went on several trips this year.
I went to Krabi, KL, Phuket, Batam, Tioman, HCMC & Taiwan. (No wonder I am so bloody broke)
Each place brought me new discoveries & fresh experiences.
I enjoyed each & every of my trips to be honest.

As I am sitting down here right now, I am thinking of nothing except to sleep.
Haha.

Disappointments are part and parcel of life actually but I feel that it is integrated into my life somehow.
Maybe it is cause I am less contented with life and have higher expectations as well?
Whatever it is, so be it.

Suddenly I feel like going on a short trip, just to relax and chill totally.
No activities at all.
I can’t seem to do it in Singapore at all.
Maybe I should head back forever.

* yawns*

in love with 东风破

2010-10-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

一盏离愁孤单伫立在窗口
我在门后假装你人还没走
旧地如重游月圆更寂寞
夜半清醒的烛火不忍苛责我
一壶漂泊浪迹天涯难入喉
你走之后酒暖回忆思念瘦
水向东流时间怎么偷
花开就一次成熟我却错过

谁在用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破
岁月在墙上剥落看见小时候
犹记得那年我们都还很年幼
而如今琴声幽幽我的等候你没听过
谁在用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破
枫叶将故事染色结局我看透
篱笆外的古道我牵着你走过
荒烟漫草的年头就连分手都很沉默

一壶漂泊浪迹天涯难入喉
你走之后酒暖回忆思念瘦
水向东流时间怎么偷
花开就一次成熟我却错过

荒烟漫草的年头就连分手都

* =) *

...

2010-10-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

Another crazy night from the past..

Months had went by unknowingly...

So many things happened this year..

*Wish it wasn't so *

2010-10-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

SNOITARTSURF

...

2010-10-19T23:01:00.005+08:00

Tonight i feel like penning in my private blog aft leaving it for several weeks.
haha.

*难道我没有权利说我不愿意*

2010-10-18T23:14:00.001+08:00

Maybe i still miss part of you,whoever you are

你不知道的事王力宏

2010-10-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨
碎落满地在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见那高空里
多的是你不知道的事

* love this song! *

2010-10-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

I got more than 1000 pics.

god bless.

haha

* i dont like to fight this kind of war *

2010-10-02T23:33:00.002+08:00

The 4th day, very good so far.. haha.

loves the tv programmes here...i want to stay here larrrrr.

Keep hearing the song 没关系 by Kenji Wu till i m addicted. the mtv is good.wahahhaa...drama.

*tata*

2010-09-29T03:27:00.002+08:00

When you really love and cherish someone, you won't be able to let go or forget about that person in a couple of months. who can be perfect? you? me? i wish. Being too close unnecessarily will just be more haunting. when people's perception about u can't be changed or minimally modified, Leave em, if u feel u r uncomfortable about e way they think of you. just a random thought! today is my last day anyway! Lol. finally out. i'll miss ppl like irene and sally Alot, hope i'll meet nice ppl like em again in a new place =) very very tiring week. exams, last day, long departure from Sg are taking e toll on me. good night. =)

*The 3 words i love you used in e past, didn't help or cover up a little of the flaws*

2010-09-25T03:57:00.000+08:00

I just had one of e most heart warming party in my life. thanks all. i'm really glad even though po and my fave neighbour can't make it. hope most can keep in touch. Lol. i hope so Ba.

...

2010-09-23T23:55:00.009+08:00

My fave temporary staff =D

lol..hope u r doing well in army!

80% dept photo.. aha..quite a number of ppl missing!

lolx

i like the song 'i gone' by jay sean:

I don't want to have to see you happy.
I can't even bare to see you smile.
Now-a-days I can't look in your eyes &...
Well I can but it takes a while
Does it show?
Told a lot of white lies to hide it all.
But they're beginning to break me down,
Though I promise it's over now.

I'm gone.
I don't blame you at all.
'Cause after all the of the things that you did for me
Got beaten by temptation
I'm gone.
Girl you're better off alone.
I don't want you to see, the truth in me.
I'm gone.... I'm gone.
oohh,

I Tried my best to keep it all together.
Tryna take it back to where we were.
Never been to good at keeping secrets,
I'll Give you reasons but for what it's worth
Lemme go.
What the hell would make you look at me the same?
Used to say "We're unbrakeable."
But I just went & changed it all.

See If I told you?
Could you live with that?
If I told you?
Could you live with that?
If I told you,
I couldn't live with that! I couldn't live with that!
Noo,
I'd rather give you no excuses at all.

I'm gone.
I don't blame you at all.
'Cause after all the of the things that you did for me
Got beaten by temptation
I'm gone.
Girl you're better off alone.
I don't want you to see, the truth in me.

You gave everything & honestly it's every fault of mine.
To beg you for forgiveness just seems wrong.
See, leaving you is one thing
But you've got to realize:
Some things are best unspoken
So please don't ask me why.

Oh, you don't want to know
Oh, woah

I'm gone.
I don't blame you at all.
'Cause after all the of the things that you did for me
Got beaten by temptation
I'm gone.
Girl you're better off alone.
I don't want you to see, the truth in me.
that's why i'm gone.
i'm gone,
i'm gone,
byee byee, i'm gone.

* To Care is not enough sometimes. *

2010-09-20T03:55:00.000+08:00

My insomnia is especially bad on a sunday night. what a vicious cycle! this weekends can't sleep too late, coz at this rate. i will never make it for my medical check up!! argh!

2010-09-19T16:15:00.001+08:00

Getting tired of games

2010-09-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

I think i need to find an escape route from all this madness saga before i go mad myself.

!!!

* WTH! *

2010-09-13T00:47:00.001+08:00

why?????????

i cant understand

2010-09-10T01:27:00.001+08:00

To see you when I wake up is a gift
I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three fold utopian dream

You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care and I miss you